Destilicious

 Khi được hỏi về lý do tại sao lại chọn ngành địa chất, thì hầu hết các câu trả lời từ những người nhiều kinh nghiệm trong ngành đều là “Vì tôi đã rớt nguyện vọng 1”.  Tôi cũng không phải là ngoại lệ. Từ một cô nữ sinh khối D giỏi ngoại ngữ, lý do nào cô ta lại chọn ngành Địa Chất để làm lối đi vào đời? Tôi đã tự hỏi câu hỏi đó nhiều lắm. Khi tôi còn trẻ hơn, tôi chỉ đơn giản làm theo sở thích của mình, tôi không nghĩ gì sâu xa hơn. Tất cả những gì mà tôi muốn lúc đó là biết thêm kiến thức về trái đất, vì tôi nghĩ nếu có được những kiến thức đó, thì hành trang đi tìm ý nghĩa sống của tôi sẽ dễ dàng hơn rất nhiều. Ít nhất nếu tôi không đủ giỏi thì tôi cũng có một mạng lưới những chuyên gia sẵn sàng giúp đỡ tôi.  Hoàn thành chương trình kỹ sư với tấm bằng giỏi, và thậm chí tôi còn trở thành thủ khoa của khóa 2013-2017 của trường ĐH TNMT, tôi hừng hực bước vào đường đời để tiến gần hơn tới ý nghĩa sống của mình. Nhưng thực tế luôn là thứ giết chết những ảo mộng. Muốn đạt đượ...

Today I discovered that I really enjoy going to museums. I like the feeling of wandering around unconsciously. There are always corners with beautiful architecture that nobody goes to, so I can have them all to myself. I don't know what will happen next, but I still want to live a life as beautiful as the movies I watch. A little romance, a little loneliness, and contemplation. I really love Europe. My little Vung Tau used to be a French city built for tourism. Even the name sounded very French at one time, Cap Saint Jacques, and the French language was taught in school. But now it no longer has that color, only remnants of the past. Exploiting that French heritage is also a challenge. Anyway, for now, I'll just explore the French heritage in Vung Tau, but I still have to go to Europe. I can't use the excuse that Vung Tau was once a French colony to stop trying to go to Europe. Keep trying.

 Today, I chose instant gratification. Doesn't it sound sinful? Firstly, I couldn't maintain balance when facing emotions. Secondly, I wasn't strict with myself. I couldn't resist temptation, which will be told through a funny and small story. So, today I wanted to eat Korean beef mixed rice. Since I realized I didn't have much money, I told myself to only spend 60,000 VND on food each day. Today, June 9th, I had already spent 53,000 VND, but I still craved the 67,000 VND beef mixed rice. Today I got my period, after many stressful days and months of waiting, it finally arrived, and I was overjoyed. Since morning, I was hypoglycemic and forgot this and that. So, I made an excuse that if I didn't eat the beef now, I might die tomorrow. But there will be cases like this: Firstly, I eat the beef mixed rice (which I did) and fast tomorrow. Secondly, I walk to the supermarket to buy some morning glory to boil and eat: this will lead to delayed gratification, which I ...

 I've been hanging out in the LAS room for almost six months now, and I don't really know what to do next. I feel like I don't want to share with people anymore because I've reached a limit in my relationships. A limit of interference and overexposure. I regret not doing more things earlier, like studying abroad. I don't understand how, as someone who's always in the middle of the swimming pool, I have to spend so much time catching up with those at the top instead of practicing to achieve things that are more suitable for me. Today, I registered for an account to apply for a master's program in the Netherlands. Actually, I dream big. I want to get an EM scholarship, I want to study at top schools, etc., but it will require a lot of time and focus. I'm still waiting for information from AAS, even though I know I'll be rejected from the preliminary round. I even applied for MAECI. I'm still practicing my writing, feeling optimistic. Practice makes...