9/6/2023 - Mimi’s Diary - Today, I chose instant gratification

Today, I chose instant gratification. Doesn't it sound sinful?

Firstly, I couldn't maintain balance when facing emotions.

Secondly, I wasn't strict with myself.

I couldn't resist temptation, which will be told through a funny and small story.

So, today I wanted to eat Korean beef mixed rice. Since I realized I didn't have much money, I told myself to only spend 60,000 VND on food each day. Today, June 9th, I had already spent 53,000 VND, but I still craved the 67,000 VND beef mixed rice. Today I got my period, after many stressful days and months of waiting, it finally arrived, and I was overjoyed. Since morning, I was hypoglycemic and forgot this and that. So, I made an excuse that if I didn't eat the beef now, I might die tomorrow.

But there will be cases like this:

Firstly, I eat the beef mixed rice (which I did) and fast tomorrow.

Secondly, I walk to the supermarket to buy some morning glory to boil and eat: this will lead to delayed gratification, which I should do. To achieve this, I had to go outside and buy and boil it.

Then today, I realized something. It turned out that the definition of a successful person for me is a monk.

But of course, there will be monks in any environment, even academic ones. Being a monk doesn't mean you can't achieve something; it's just that you're not suitable to achieve it yet. Achieving something doesn't mean you have to compete or use tricks to rise up. So, not achieving something doesn't mean that you are a monk, but rather that you find an excuse to choose instant gratification.

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