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29/7/2023 - Mình thật ngây thơ

 Mình thật ngây thơ 

Mình lo nghĩ gì chứ? Trong khi mình đã ở đây hơn nửa năm rồi? 

Mình lo sợ người ta vu oan cho mình?

Có camera mà.

Mình lo sợ có biến cố gì đó xảy ra và mình phải gánh?

Mình đâu phải sếp H, tự làm tự chịu trách nhiệm chứ có gì đâu mà phải sợ. 

Mình lo sợ người khác nói mình thế này thế kia, nói xấu sau lưng mình?

Chi vậy? Đó là điều bình thường của cuộc sống mà. Họ luôn vậy, nhưng họ vẫn yêu quý mình bằng cách nào đó. 

Mình đã vượt qua được đến hôm nay rồi, còn gì mà mình phải lo sợ nữa hả Des? 

Còn kế hoạch của mình? Mình có nên giúp ông X không?

Anh T nói là cái nào ra cái đó. Đó giờ mình vẫn trộn lẫn rồi cũng có đâu vào đâu đâu, nên mình nghĩ là mình nên thay đổi cách tiếp cận mọi thứ. 

Mình đi làm địa chất để làm gì? Để kiếm tiền, để giới thiệu cho mọi người biết về những công việc của ngành địa chất. 

Ngành địa chất có cần công nghệ không? Có. Nhưng mình có cần tạo ra phần mềm không? Không. 

Tại sao mình không nghiên cứu nén cố kết, CU và UU tự động? Làm việc với những phần mềm đó? Mà lại đi tạo ra cái phần mềm? Cứ từ từ đi Des ạ. Từ từ mình cũng sẽ hiểu được tại sao thôi. Bây giờ mình chưa làm được đâu. Mà nếu có làm thì mình cũng mất rất nhiều thời gian đổi lại một thứ không đáng. Trừ khi mình gặp may. Nếu mình còn tin vào may mắn thì cứ làm. 

Chủ Nhật mình làm gì à? Mình cứ dành thời gian chép biểu và đọc sách đi. Rảnh thì đọc chút tiếng Trung đăng bài. Làm hết thứ hai ba tư rồi về. Tiếp tục làm theo kế hoạch. 

I'm so naive.


What am I worried about? While I've been here for over six months?


I'm afraid someone will falsely accuse me?


There are cameras, though.


I'm worried that something unexpected will happen and I'll have to bear the consequences?


I'm not the boss, I'm just responsible for my own actions, so why should I be afraid?


I'm afraid of what others say about me, talking behind my back?


So what? That's normal in life. They're always like that, but they still care about me in some way.


I've made it this far, what else do I have to fear, Des?


What about my plans? Should I help Mr. X?


Anh T said it's up to me. I've been mixing things up all this time, so I think I should change my approach to everything.


Why did I choose to study geology? To make money, to introduce people to the work of the geology field.


Does the geology field require technology? Yes. But do I need to create software? No.


Why don't I research compression, CU, and automatic UU? Work with those software? Instead of creating software? Take it slowly, Des. I'll understand why eventually. I can't do it now anyway. And if I do, it will take a lot of time for something that's not worth it, unless I get lucky. If I still believe in luck, then go ahead and do it.


What do I do on Sundays? I'll just spend time taking notes and reading books. If I have free time, I'll read a bit of Chinese and post articles. Finish everything on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and then go home. Continue following the plan.


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