Destilicious

  I went to an old bookstore this morning to look for props for my next video in the series Circle of life by Ming . And guess what, I learned another lesson about running my business. For what I have always been trying, everything I do in this series is all real so I always I want to prioritize the spirit of experiencing life. There are plenty of things that I have never done before at the age of 26, counted as little things like walking in an old bookstore I have seen several times or simply eating a bowl of pork organ congee. The moment I landed my feet on the ground of the bookstore, there was an unspeakable euphoria of wisdom rising up inside of my soul because I knew, the voice of the creator wanted me to get there today and he had already checked the task saying mission completed on his checklist for me to achieve it. I like the atmosphere that hung over this old bookstore. What appealing enough was stacks of books embodying classes of generations which were neatly packe...

The southern area of Vietnam this season is incredibly hot. I can say that the weather is as hot as my temper every time I'm on the drag. Not funny at all.  I get mad with almost everything and no way I could maintain my composure to deal with situations arising in my daily activities which affect my mental health badly. Whenever I feel out of track, I talk a lot, or text a lot, depending on which methods I use for communicating. But most of the time, I text a lot. I usually allow negative thoughts to drag me down and sometimes intrusive thoughts, whatever it can be, the devil inside me, the personification of all the worst will emerge and screw things up. In short, these days, I'm seriously lost my mind and fall into a giant angry pot full of boiling water with hatred towards life.  Me of some years ago suffered PMS more severely than now,  I even wanted to die and cried literally everyday in the week before my period. I would deceive myself that I was the most miserable...

  It was a tough Valentine's day you know, I had to travel a lot but it was cool, to be honest, I did something new, which is the most important thing in this journey of finding myself. What does that mean by finding myself anyway? Riding my bike, the stream of thoughts encompassed my mind, forcing me to solve the quest of human psychology, from the lifestyle behavior of my old boss, my friends and acquaintances to how I was born and raised in this glamorous city of classes. The elements that form the combination of this girl I am were assembled through a developing process of family background, education and by chance, people I have met up with.  I winded up thinking about this matter when a flash of memories crossed my mind, on my way of getting closer to the nature embracing me all the time without my recognition. I wonder, why mother earth always favors earthy souls and brings them to me, a city girl fueled by the hustle and bustle of a distressful glitzy world. I can't de...

  Do I need to write about it? I'm not sure, I'm not sure whether I have the authority to actually judge someone. But obviously I'm still a normal human being strapped in the world full of jealousy and arrogance. And I must admit that I am just a freaking mediocre person.  OMG I should have just shut my mouth up and let them experience themselves instead of throwing up everything I know in the hope of them to understand my shit. WELL CALM DOWN! Urgh I will take a deep breath and think about how I behaved many years ago. Yeah I was a wild horse, I used to think I was the center of the world and for God's sake I have repeated that phrase many times in my old posts. But the matter of fact is that everybody who has come to my life at this phase all behaves the same as I was right before my awakening.  I get mad. I'm mad because they don't understand, they don't understand anything, they think they know everything, they think they're an expert in their field ...

 Ambling along the slippery isle of my perception, deep inside of that dark hole, the light burst in and I know I'm awakening. I have heard about that word several times in the past, but I had never actually had any remarkable insight of it, yet I know I'm awakening, at least for this moment, in this phase of my life. I have contemplated many things, along with multiple questions I have been asking myself, I also look back every route that I took when facing the crossroads and I saw a giant problem which has troubled me for a quite long period of time.  Everything happened to me naturally in a way that I had no idea how it worked, without my being aware of it. I just know I have experienced enough to see I need to stop and start all over again, to be myself and to find peace in my soul. The day I left my family to have a life out there, I had always been blaming myself for interacting with other human beings and for fitting in with the community. I had a very strong acknowledg...

  Last night I had a really strange dream. I could say that it was a story told in flashback of what had happened and it also predicted a little bit about the near future.  It was a story about stages of my life, some had passed some are still beyond my anticipation, but I have faith, it's the only thing I know by now. I have realized many other significant things after being sent this dream, that faith remains inside everyone of us without our knowing because we don't actually believe in simple things such as love, faith and dream. We know the words but we are not fully aware of them, of their true meanings which are still hidden under a thick layer of mortal soil.  I was in my classroom with a lot of students, I guess they were my classmates. We had an assignment to do and we had to work in a small group of three. I was with two friends, one was my college's classmate and the other was from my secondary school, we collaborated with each other to do the task but we didn...

There are times I try to look back every step along the way by reading my old posts. Rereading is sort of fun, brings me the novelty of the current version compared to the old one I used to be. I once saw a post on Reddit discussing what would happen after we die. There was a comment saying that, we die in every single second. Every movement that we are about to make in the next second is also an updated version of ourselves and the previous versions are dead, so death is the essence of our life.  And yes, I have died many times and I have lived many lives. It's 2022, time flies as how it always does periodically. Yet I also have my anxieties and my own aspirations deep inside, it has been a hectic time for me with a whirl of thoughts needed to be rearranged in my head. I have left Saigon, the splendid city with nights of shimmering urban lights, to return to my loving hometown where my long-forgotten family has a strong bond with. I came home with my mother and my siblings along w...